6/30/10

Yeah, well, that didn’t last. I did only smoke a half a pack each day for 3 days. Then I got paid and smoked a whole pack in half a day. Worse, we went shopping today and I realized I have to get in a swim suit in 2 weeks. I’m feeling really depressed and anxious. I started to get stressed at the mall because they don’t have any suits left in my size, and I didn’t even have to try any on! Then my daughter has to add fuel to the fire by telling me that I do tend to eat fast food and have a hard time committing to anything. I don’t know if I am more irritated with her or with myself.