6/14 the cold hard truth

I haven’t worked out since the 11th. Where does the time go? I’ve just been hiding in my house. Partly because I don’t have any money and partly because I’m just a lazy procrastinator. I have this internet friend in California. We’ve been talking for about a decade. I just got his first pic the other day. Wasn’t what I expected, but I didn’t really have any expectations anyway I guess. He’s always nagging me about working out. He says I should be like 117. I think that’s just ridiculous. But I humor him. He bought P90X the other day and is really pushing me to do it. I don’t know if I can, but I agreed. I guess he’s gonna send it to me.
He’s always talking about Jillian Michaels. No offense to her, but I don’t really want to look like that. I saw a when I was 17 on her. Her motivation was a muscular woman in a movie. That doesn’t work for me. If I were to aspire to be like someone, I would aspire because of their intelligence rather than their figure, but to me power=intelligence rather than strength. That’s just me. But I watched her show last night for the first time and it was inspiring. I wish they’d publish the workout regimen and diet, but I suppose they wouldn’t make any money at their website if they gave it away for free. I wonder if she feels like a sell out. I mean, what’s her real motivation? To help people or to make money? Doesn’t anyone do anything anymore just because they believe in it? Why does it have to be about the bottom dollar? I’m a teacher. Do you really think I do it for the money? I think politicians should have to try to live on a teacher’s salary. There would be a completely different group of politicians out there if you took the money factor out. You would be left with the people that really care about the state of our government.

So today I decided I was going to shake things up. I pulled out My Personal Trainer on Wii. I bought it last summer and did it for a little while. It wasn’t working very quickly, then again, I give up easily. So it wouldn’t let me put in my new weight and measurements since it’s been a year and I decided I needed to start honestly, so I created a new profile. You start by measuring. The numbers are staggering.

Weight: 185 lbs
Biceps: 14 in.
Chest: 44 in.
Waist: 43 in.
Hips: 46 ¼ in.
Thighs: 26 ¾ in.

I don’t even like to look, let alone, why would I publicly post them? Because I should be ashamed. I remember when I had a waist the size of one of my thighs. Granted that was in 9th grade, but I did. I wasn’t sure where to measure the chest so I went with the broadest part (over the boobs, no bra). At least the boobs are still up in the chest area. Could you imagine taking that measurement down at the knees :-)

Then you go on to the fitness assessment. I suppose by still smoking, I’m kind of being counter productive. I keep saying I’m going to quit, but I don’t. Maybe today’s the day. I just hope I don’t kill anyone. Even though the assessment had me sweating, I decided to go ahead with a 15 minute upper body workout while it was on. My goal is to start walking on top of doing the workouts in the morning as I have been. I might take my dog.